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Monday, April 7, 2014

A New Week

Hey you guys. Mondays, amiright?!? So anyways, 2 or so weeks ago I lamented about my artist block and decided to keep writing about it to help myself through it and it really did help! It helped to know I was accountable and needed to show I was working on something. I don't have a TON of followers here but I wanted to show I was working through the block. I think I got past it since I've been working steadily on drawings and collages since I last posted. I am planning on re-opening an online store for my work and will continue to apply to shows in the midst of apartment hunting and other various life events happening. Not sure when I'll have the shop open but sooner rather than later would be preferred of course. I still want art to be my only job but it's not realistic right now and not sure it ever will be? I'm a bit too realistic for my own good sometimes and it's no fun. 

I hope that didn't end this post of a negative note! Here's a photo of my cramped work table from Saturday night. I chugged some coffee and got a lot of little things that I had been meaning to do done. 




Monday, March 31, 2014

Weekend/ Busting that Artist Block

Some snaps from the weekend! I think I'm working through the artist block pretty well and have almost gotten rid of it (for now).

A friend of mine is moving to Portland and can only take so much with on such a big move. I am sad to see her go but she's been so sweet and hooked me up with some supplies! 


I found these great circle/scalloped beige paper bits at Jo-Anns and am playing around with decorating them for stationary and collaging.


Current painting in progress. 




Friday, March 28, 2014

Not so Secret Project?

I can't exactly update what I worked on last night (Trying to do daily updates to help my artist block if you're just joining) since I'm working out some possible ideas for hosting a workshop at a local Logan Square business. But yes I did work in my studio! I'm slowly getting back in the routine of getting in there on a regular basis.

So I guess it's just a super fast and boring update today. Tonight I plan on celebrating Friday by drinking wine with a friend so no studio time but I hope to update some fun art stuff over the weekend.

I found this on Pinterest and it really put why I make art in to perspective for me. I tend to lose focus VERY easily and fall in to a sort of existential crisis.



Happy weekend! My fingers are crossed for a weather warm up here in Chicago!


Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Wednesday Night Sketching

Just a little bit of sketching while catching up on Broad City tonight. I've been thinking a lot about patterns and doilies and started to draw out some bits that I've had in my head recently. After my boyfriend went to work at 9pm I almost wanted to just read the rest of the night but I pushed myself to do at least a little drawing first since I'm pushing through this artist block. Working on things little by little is perfect for me right now, I don't feel a ton of pressure to make something perfect in one night. I think because I don't do art full time that I feel I need to make, make, make and I am disappointed when I work at a slow pace; but I am realizing that is just right for me at the moment and there is nothing wrong with that.  



Documenting Artist Block

Writing and posting here has really been helping me so I decided to document getting through this current round of artist block. I will try to post every day, but let's see how long that lasts! Hopefully I get back in to a good groove of things soon and am no longer worrying about feeling stuck. 

So tonight I worked on a painting that I have such a specific vision for but I can't translate it on to canvas quite yet. I'm pushing forward layer by layer to make it come together. I need to stop being such a control freak and just go with the flow!


I originally thought I would do a darker background with a white outline of this woman but that wasn't looking quite right so I am changing the line work to charcoal to pop a bit more. 

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Artist Block Follow Up

Turns out that writing out some of my fears and frustrations with my recent artist block helped me get a little motivated last night. I only did a little bit of drawing but it felt good to get in the studio! I've really been enjoying doing these drawings on vintage etiquette book paper and want to keep doing them (I have so many books). I was still fighting some fatigue last night so this was all I worked on. One day at a time!





Monday, March 24, 2014

Artist Block

I’m stuck and I don’t know why. Well, I know a few factors, but I can’t understand the fear I have of making things lately. Not everything I do will be perfect, I understand that completely but I cannot for the life of me get over it right now. I’ll get home from work and be ready to work on a few things I’ve been mulling over and I just can’t make myself do it. I can’t go in the studio and even sit down at my work desk. I know it doesn’t help that I’ve been sick a lot this winter (Chicago weather is brutal this year). Every month at least I have a sinus infection, allergy issues, general cold; which leads to resting up a lot and that often leads to depression for me. It’s a vicious cycle where I just want to lay in bed and time seems to move so slow. Laundry piles up, garbage cans overflows. A lot of wondering what the hell I’m doing with my life if I’m just working my day job and not doing the things I enjoy in my spare time. I start to feel withdrawn from social interactions, and when I finally do see my friends I am afraid they will be upset that I haven’t been hanging out much (they never say anything, I just worry I will disappoint them). Worry never solved anything, yet I do it everyday. 

Maybe I just need to be more mindful to create a space that I feel comfortable in and can meditate on the good things in my life. And I need to do this instead of just saying I should do this. I have been making sure to put myself first as to take care of myself mentally and I think it’s been a huge benefit to my well being. I can feel ok! I can be happy!



Oddly enough, writing this out and knowing I’m sharing on my blog makes me feel better. I know I’m not the only one out there who feels like this and it’s nice to know I’m not alone.



Been spending a lot of time here lately. Good thing my bed is cozy.