Sunday, February 24, 2013
Learning to Love Myself
Warning! Long personal post.
I stumbled across this drawing on Tumblr and it really speaks to what I've been trying to do lately. I used to have this "go go go" mentality and loved to be busy and often disliked being at home because I was afraid of becoming a hermit, thought a night at home alone was lame, and often I was trying to avoid being alone with my thoughts. Lately though I'm realizing it's ok to turn down a night out at a bar to be at home and do whatever the hell I want to do. It's ok to lay in bed on a Friday night with a cup of tea and a book. It's ok to spend all day Sunday puttering around in my studio. It's ok to do whatever the hell I want.
A few months ago I broke up with my boyfriend (who I am still friends with) and typically my post break up activity is to go out drinking as much as possible, re-activate my online dating profile and try to get back in the game asap. I learned a lot from this break up and the relationship about what I want and it lead to me thinking about what I wanted from life in general. I have big dreams but keep realistic goals in mind. I had no desire to start dating again after I went on some dates a bit too soon after the break up (let's be real, dating is exhausting); so now I have a lot of time to focus on myself and it is awesome. I'm being selfish and not being guilty about it and it feels so damn good. These last fews months have really taught me a lot and I just wanted to write a personal post to share how happy I have been overall lately. Trust me, I still have crazy ups and downs sometimes, but thinking about where I'm coming from, I couldn't be happier.